Slow down kid, you’ve got time

Sometimes, I forget that I am 25 years old.

Really, my coworker asked me the other day and I said 26. Then I corrected myself…three hours later.

I forget that I am relatively new to things, like running, like living on my own, like managing a business. Even though I feel competent in these areas, in the grand scheme of things, I have a long way to go.

That revelation has been the crucial thing that has provided respite this past week. I have a slight injury in my shin that has prevented me from running and makes my racing plans for the year unsolidifiable. I can’t really make concrete plans when I am not engaging in the activity.

I was really depressed about this last week. (Side note, it’s only been just over a week that I haven’t ran, so it’s not like it’s been that long) I thought my life was over. I felt like I was letting people down. People who believe in me, help me in my training and want to see me do well. I felt like I was letting myself down. I was really fit. I was ready to crush something. This injury was sustained basically at my job.

Stress in life combined with training stress built up and manifested in my shin.

At least it’s not a heart attack am I right?

Anyway, I was really sad because I want running to be my life. I see my friends and other runners doing so well and it’s incredible. I want that to be me!

But it’s not. Those runners are different. Those runners have a greater training age (ran in college and high school etc). Those runners are not me.

I am only capable of what my body can do. Right now my body is coping with a major life change. I moved, I changed jobs, I have a lot more responsibility in that job, I am in school, my new city is different and learning the roads is difficult. There is a lot on my mind!

I have had to accept my limits right now. I will run again when my leg feels better. I am blessed I can still walk, cross train and do most everything. Honestly, I haven’t tried running because I can feel my shin when I move in certain ways. I’m not going to rush into it because I don’t want anything worse to happen. When I can, I’ll run.

I have so many good years of running ahead of me. I am 25 years old. My training age is 4.

I have time. I love running. That will keep me coming back. Fast or slow. Road or trail.

Good things take time. I’ll wait.

19 thoughts on “Slow down kid, you’ve got time”

  1. Sounds like you’re hanging in there – stress can have a nasty effect on performance and training. Wishing a speedy recovery! My training has been dragging with our icky weather and work stress, at this point I’m just thankful to b e running!

  2. WAHOO!!! I love this; because it’s so true; sometimes I get so worried I won’t have enough time to do it all; but then I’m reminded that I will have all the time God wants me to have to do all the things He wants me to do, so I’m not worried.

  3. Good things DO take time, but oh my gosh girl you are waaaay ahead of the game. You have so many responsibilities and fantastic accomplishments. You ROCK. I’ll be thinking about you and praying for a quick recovery. Injuries are frustrating.

  4. Everyone can be stucked in stress sometimes in their life. I believe that everything will be ok in the end, if it’s not ok it’s not the end. Be trong, girl. I trust I can overcome anything. GOOD thing will come to you <3

  5. I used to always hate it – heck, sometimes I still do – when people would tell me “Oh you are so young!! You have lots of time!” And I’m like.. um… no…. I”m not. Butttt I’m starting to see that more and more. Hell girl, we are young. The 20s are the new… 40s? Is that what they’re saying? Whatever it is, we have time and our bodies are going to keep us going strong for years. Lots of time to keep powering through.

  6. I like that….training age is 4. I guess that makes my training age 33 1/2 as my parents entered me in my first track me at age 3. I feel like I still have time too. I (when I am running) am consistently running the best and fastest that I’ve ever done in my whole life….better than in cross country in high school; better than on the triathlon team in college; better because you learn more each time you go out to run. Stick in there….this too will pass (the shin) and you’ll be on to even more adventures!

    1. Aw thanks for the encouragement AmberLynn! That’s incredible that you are the fastest you’ve ever been! You are actually the prime age for running, get out and crush it!

  7. This is such a good reminder! Perspective! When I’m dealing with an injury, I always have that a similar feeling of looking at other runners and feeling like, “Why can’t that be me? Why can’t MY body seem to hold up?” But the reality is that I’ve been running for like 2 seconds. Subtracting the 5 months I was out with a stress fracture, I’ve been running for about 15 months! That’s nothing! It’s hard when you want to do ALL the things RIGHT NOW. But yeah, there’s plenty of time. 🙂 Hope your shin feels better soon!!!

  8. Way to stay positive and reframe the shin injury, Ellie! You WILL get back to running! You do have plenty of time! And your training age is only 4, so you’re practically a toddler ;). I know you’ll be back out on the roads in no time!

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