As of today, I have been off running for 9 days. I have not run since I bonked last weekend and although I feel recovered in regard to my immune system, I developed pain on the side of my foot that has prevented me from resuming my training.
If you had told me this was going to happen a few weeks ago, I would have freaked out a bit. I have racing plans for gosh sake! I have been doing workouts on the track, long runs and getting ready for fall racing.
After the bonk, I new I needed to take a small step back. I stopped the heart pounding runs and let myself recover. I felt a soreness in my foot that day, which turned into a legit pain the next day. It was kind of uncomfortable to walk, but I have an on your feet job so resting was hard. I iced twice and took pain reliever but you know, nothing works as well as just getting off my damn foot.
I figured it would take a few days for my foot to feel back to normal, but here I am a week and a half later still refraining from pounding the pavement. It does not hurt anymore, but I feel a niggle when I try to jog.
I’m not pushing it.
When I run for long periods of time, not running or thinking about not running triggers sadness and some anxiety. This anxiety is related to the “what should I do with my time?” Rather than losing identity as a runner or losing fitness. My fitness is fluid. I am losing specific running fitness, but I’m not unfit in a traditional sense.
The first few days of not running were ok mostly because I was still recovering from bonking. After that, when I felt fine again but my foot was sore, my mental prowess started to wane. I mean, I just love getting out there and moving my body. I’m used to running and it’s not new or that challenging.
I felt like I lost my passion.
How did I process this?
I let myself feel crappy about it.
I changed my racing plans in case I can’t run.
I focused on saving energy for the busy shifts at work.
I looked for other things to do instead.
What am I doing instead?
I am trying to create higher quality content for my blog and brand.
I am taking tutorials on how to work social media platforms and watching seminars from the smartest women in my blogosphere to learn how to make my content better.
I started lifting weights.
I joined other communities that aren’t running focused.
I’m taking more time to cook for myself.
I opened up other things in my life that fill me up in the same way running did.
I am not done running, never will I stop doing that, but I’ve taken this time off in stride rather than let it fuel my misery.
When I decided to take a running break, I went back to my gym to start my membership back up. When I started talking to the woman at the desk, she mentioned that they were looking for people to work the desk. Call it divine intervention, but it had been on my mind recently about getting a different job apart from CTB. Not only is it exhausting, but I think it’s a reason my foot is taking longer to heal. It’s hard to rest an injury when you use it all the time.
So, I applied. Who knows if I’ll get it, but I have my (injured) foot in the door. Who knows what connections this could make?
Life goes on even when running doesn’t. I have defined my identity before as a runner, and I still believe that. However, when running gets disrupted, it creates opportunity to explore other creative outlets in my life.
Running will always be there, right now, I’m focusing on other things. My passion isn’t lost, it’s channeled in a different direction.#Running will always be there. #mentaltoughness #tol Click To Tweet
What is your passion?
What do you channel your energy into when you can’t do it?
Who likes lifting weights?!