My word for 2017 was Tough.
In 2017, I made myself tougher in many respects.
I ran some gnarly trails.
I lived alone on Syracuse for 6 months.
I moved back to Ithaca.
I showed up for people.
I made pain my friend.
I tried to get better at being cold.
I controlled my mouth and sarcasm.
I stopped being vegan when it didn’t work for me.
I would say that on the whole, I am tougher than last year at this time.
My words for this year are: Focus and Willpower, or the willpower to remain focused on whatever I am doing.
I want to continue to be present, for people, for work, for assignments.
Focusing on one thing at a time is something I have to practice because there are always a million things vying for my attention.
The million tabs open.
The mindless Instagram scrolling.
The people talking while I am doing something else.
When I don’t give what’s important my full attention, the job I do, the recipe I am making or even the food I am eating is simply sub par. Focusing and concentrating on the task at hand, even if my gaze or thoughts are pulled away, but coming back to focus on that task, is something I believe has been serving me this past month.
I refuse to skim articles. If I begin to read it, I will finish it regardless of interest level.
I finish editing one photo before moving onto the other things I remember I also need to do.
I eat a bite, and actually taste it before moving onto the next one.
The second word, willpower, is simply a descriptive word of how I will remain focused. When I don’t want to finish reading an article or start to skim, the word willpower goes through my mind and I keep reading.
When I think of the fears I have moving into a van, I think about the willpower I need to make it through the beginning rough stages.
Grit could be another word, but willpower speaks to me.
Willpower and Focus.
Focus first, use willpower to remain focused.
My words of 2018.