Final Marathon Thoughts

This will be my last post before my race on Sunday. In order to not go completely insane, it think a mind dump is in order here.

I’ve learned so much in the past six months and wrote about it here.

That’s not what I want to talk about today. Today I just want to bare it all.

To be honest, I’m not as anxious as I predicted I would be. I get anxiety a lot actually, but I’m good at holding it in and coping. I know what to do when I get anxiety. As of right now, I only feel one thing:



I just want to get out there and run!

My runs this week have felt fine. Nothing good or bad. I think that is a sign that I want to race. I want to run 26.2 miles in one go, cross the finish line and smile.

I have a time goal, sure. But I think what I keep remembering is that this is my first marathon. I am not putting as much pressure on myself as I used to. I feel relaxed about this. I know I am only 24, and have many running years left. Nothing rests on this.

I also have decided that it’s ok if I do not like this race and choose not to do another one. It is ok if I decide that my favorite distance is something shorter (or longer and slower). I have freed myself from needing to be a marathoner. I can be a one and done person.

My plans for this race are to enter the pain cave, but manage it. My friend and SHVP teammate said this of the marathon:

“It’s like, the longest distance where you have to go fast.”

I agree with this. I will have to push for 26.2 miles and hope it doesn’t go to shit. There are a lot of opportunities for it go to hell. There will be low points, high points and mental battles. I know I can physically run the distance and I feel confident and mentally strong. However, that does not guarantee success. I will have to race longer than I ever have before.

Shit show or not, it will be epic.

I have fears (not practicing nutrition enough), doubts (why am I entering the elite field again?) and just general worries (what if I get lost?). But what keeps me from going down those rabbit holes is the confidence I have in what the past 6 months have showed me and the wise words from my running mentors about my chances.

I’m not going for any other reason than to finish 26.2 miles with a smile.

Let’s talk post race. I’m already getting emails from fast women in my community about XC season or other races. I have decided to put all those thoughts on the back burner.

I am not ready to think about after the race. Regardless of how it goes, I am taking a 1-2 week break from exercise and my pretty good nutrition plan. Even if I end up only jogging or don’t feel tired, I need this mental break. I have been focused on this goal for 6 months (plus all the base building beforehand). I tuned my diet in, I slept as much as I could, I prioritized recovery, I ran hard. I need the time off.

Then and only during those weeks after will I even think about what’s next. I will not entertain too much thinking about this or commit to anything before I am done with the goal at hand. Running will be there after the two weeks.

So that’s what I’ve got today guys. That’s it. I’m ready. I’m going to do it.

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26 thoughts on “Final Marathon Thoughts”

  1. YES, nothing rests on this first marathon. Enjoy every minute. Don’t stress over your watch! Run hard, but don’t kill yourself. God already knows exactly how it will turn out, so don’t be anxious! I think you will do amazing.

  2. You got this girl. No matter what happens – to which you can’t control – you know you have done everything you could to prepare, and you ARE ready. Have fun. This is your haven.

  3. Good luck, girl! I have a feeling that you’re going to do awesome, but regardless of what happens, I’m betting the whole training experience taught you a tonne, and that’s worth a whole heck of a lot in itself. I hope you finish with a smile! 😀

  4. Good luck, but you’ll be great! Can’t wait to read about your recovery and post-race experiences as I face that later this year. No pressure for the first race, just absorb the experience and get that 26.2 is how I’m looking at it!

  5. !!!!! I’m so glad to hear you’re excited! What an awesome thing! I think it’s really wise to remind yourself that you may decide it’s not your thing…but you’re still going for it! Get lots of sleep and fuel the next couple of days! We’ll be here to congratulate you on Monday!

  6. The only thing you need to focus on is having fun – that is why you do this and it’s the main thing in life! Have fun and do your best, no one is asking any more of you 🙂
    Big massive good luck wishes to you!

    1. Thank you so much Jen! Having fun is a huge part of running and I will definitely remember that when I’m out there, even when I enter the pain cave 🙂

  7. Good luck girl, I am thinking about you!
    I love the part of the post where you say you give yourself permission not to like it. Great attitude of self-awareness.

  8. Will be thinking of you! I hope you enjoy it. Just remember that 26.2 miles is a long way to go. It is awesome that you are confident you can go the distance… I know you can too but it may require some reigning in of the eagerness. A lot of people (including first-time elites!) have said they can run a great 20 mile race 🙂 Those last 6.2 are no joke! Of course go in confident but don’t think too lightly of those last 6 miles. You’ll do great. Pace yourself 🙂

    1. Thanks for the reminder Amanda. I definitely need to respect the difference. I’m ready for it to hurt, I’m ready to cross the finish line, no matter how hard it is 🙂

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