Feeling bleh and my emotional hunger

Good Monday Morning everyone! My baby sister turned 21 on Saturday, so please send a few prayers or positive vibes wishing her a great year! This morning I am linking up with Meg for week in review.

Time for some deeper stuff.

Can we talk a bit about how unmotivated I feel right now? I got up to run this morning with an “eh” attitude that only got worse. The day before was the same. I would have taken the day off, but I was meeting a running group. We all were feeling just kind of tired. Granted, I shouldn’t be tired because it was the morning after my weekend, but I still was.

This morning the only thing that got me out the door was listening to the Rich Roll podcast. It’s a weekly treat and I was very interested in his guest, the Ice Man. Still, not the best run.

I haven’t done a weekly workout recap in a while, so let’s take a look at my training from last week:


Monday: 13 mile fartlek 

Tuesday: 11ish mile run with Ved

Wednesday: 15ish mile run with Leslie and Natalie

Thursday: 10ish mile run with strides

Friday: 8 miles with Ved and Julie

Saturday: 8.5 miles of death

Not a bad week, but I started to feel blah during the second half of Wednesday’s run. I even asked the women if it felt longer than usual. The route we did had a lot of turns and was on trails, so that might have contributed to it, or it was just me. Anyway, after the beginning of the week, my running has been more of a thing to cross off a list than a joy.

I’ll reevaluate after tomorrow and maybe take the next day off.

Other things on my mind this week:

Cleaning up my diet

I’ve made it no secret that I decrease consumption of certain foods when I am training. I am not ashamed of that nor do I feel I need to defend myself. However in this next build up, I don’t start ramping up speed for another month. This month looks like maintaining high mileage with a few fartleks and pickups each week. Therefore complete reduction of foods is not necessary. I need to give myself a break here. I think that this has weighed on my mind too much this past week and it is hindering my mental game when I approach running. This week I will make a point not to care so much.

That’s kind of an oxymoron, so here is what I mean. If I find myself stressing about the kind of food I am eating, I will do these three steps:

1.) Breathe deeply

2.) Ask myself what I am hungry for

3.) Eat that thing

Number two can mean physical hunger or emotional hunger. When what I consume does not satisfy my emotional needs, other parts of my life suffer. It’s like turning down an invitation for 1AM nachos with friends. Maybe not the highest quality fuel, but the best emotional fuel.


I don’t feel like I am a bad sleeper. I just always have to go to the bathroom, and then I get thirsty. Does anyone else have this problem?


I filled out paperwork for school this August. I’m not sure where it will lead, but the door is open.


That’s about all I have to ramble about this Monday.

Emotional hunger, yes, I have it too #runchat Click To Tweet

What fills your emotional hunger?

How much sleep do you get?

16 thoughts on “Feeling bleh and my emotional hunger”

  1. I think you are right not to deny yourself anything right now. You’re putting a lot of work in!
    I’ve never heard the term “fartlek” but it’s kind of a funny word, am I right?
    I hope you feel like bleh and more yay throughout this week. You got this!

    1. A fartlek is just a fancy word for random speed intervals while you run. There isn’t really a specific workout or anything. It means you speed up sometimes and then slow down and recover fully, then speed up again.

  2. As always, I support your journey as a brilliant, resilient, vegan athlete and I have faith that this little slump you feel you’re in will help you learn more about your running journey and bring you back stronger than before! It’s good to re-evaluate your goals and why you are doing what is important to you. Keep on keeping on, stay strong and keep smiling that beautiful smile all while enjoying life in the moment! Thanks for sharing your raw, emotional thoughts this morning 🙂

  3. I think that stress is way more damaging and anxiety than anything else. Be anxious for nothing! And the bleh’s happen. It’s part of life on this earth, but I’m learning that it’s just a reminder that this world is not our home. We’re just a passing through… Yet, we can have joy in the Lord no matter what happens. It’s quite an amazing paradox. O_O For feeling bleh Ellie, you did quite a bit of running! Wow! :o) And just an encouragement that it wouldn’t be a bad thing to rest for a day. That often helps refresh me. Praying for peace and refreshment in the Lord Jesus for you.

    Wanted to share a passage to encourage you to look to Jesus friend. I need that encouragement all the time. John 14:26-28, ‘ But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.

    27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

    28 Ye have heard how I said unto you, I go away, and come again unto you. If ye loved me, ye would rejoice, because I said, I go unto the Father: for my Father is greater than I.’

    Email me if I can pray for you in any specific way!

  4. Maybe you need to take a break for a week or so and recharge those batteries, the physical and emotional ones. It might help with the eh feeling and you can come back stronger.

    Happy Monday and thanks for linking up.

  5. Your mileage is impressive as always! But maybe a break is in order, maybe trading some running days for more cross-training activities. I had a major slump this month too and felt like it was the combo of the heat here and not the best eating with work and life stress. I cut out most of the processed sugars and fats during the week and included more beans as well as tried a new B12 Energy liquid for smoothies and that seemed to help a lot.

  6. I hear you that sometimes, it’s important to let those thoughts about diet and clean eating go. I’ve found that in my life, the anxiety itself has done me more harm than the treats ever did. It’s great to eat healthy, but it’s not worth obsessing over, either.
    I’m curious what a fartlek is–can you explain?

    1. A fartlek is the German word for “Speed play” (or maybe it’s Finnish?) and it basically means speeding up for certain sections of the run and then slowing down for a full recovery, and then speeding up again.

  7. Hugs to you, girl! It sounds like you definitely need to give yourself a little extra TLC – whether that be eating or doing something you love, taking a bath or getting a massage or whatever you feel like is the perfect treat for you!

    Healthy eating is all about balance too!

  8. Diddo to many of the above comments, though we all know you are insanely wise and self aware so I know you will figure out what you have to do for yourself. And only you can make that call. If its rest and time away that deep down you know you need, then I know you will take it. Life slumps suck – but they are normal and they do happen to all of us. But they also pass and we do come out the other end. You will most definitely come out of this with some sort of new insight or appreciation or self knowledge or game plan for what you want going forward. It may feel messy now, but everything gets messier before it gets cleaner right? I’m rambling. I just want you to know you rock. Have patience. Breathe. Wait for the answers.
    Also. I remember doing fartleks (fart – licks?) when I played soccer. They were my favorite. Not only because of the name.

    1. You’re the first person to know what they are! 🙂 I think you’re right Cora, I’ll bounce back eventually. I put a lot of pressure on myself this past week to “figure out” a racing schedule and it was stressing me out. I’m feeling better already after your kind words <3

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