I was sitting at Waffle Frolic, about to eat my eggs Florentine waffle. I cut into the egg yolk, and I felt kind of sick. I started eating, and wondered what I was doing. My b12 levels are normal again. I still care for animals. Why am I eating this?
This was the culmination of what has been on my mind both during the day and in dreams at night. The pull, the remembrance, the feeling that I need to start doing the right thing.
What was stopping me? The ease. The convenience. How I didn’t have to think much. I never ate meat, but dairy is in everything. It’s so easy to just not care. Shrug my shoulders and say oh well, the universe is cyclical and I’m not killing anything directly.
My family does not accept it. My sister, who is my best friend, said she does not support me being vegan because it’s hard and a pain to spend time with me when they have to wonder what I can eat. I get it. When you don’t make the connection, which they don’t, they think humans are supposed to eat animals. That God put animals on earth for this purpose. I don’t believe that, but I cannot change their beliefs. They think I’m just being a difficult hippie. I also understand that I had a problem with food in high school. They thought that vegan was another one of those. They know I’m fine now, but still do not think highly of not eating certain foods for whatever reason.
Those are the obstacles that have been on my mind the past few weeks as I ponder trying to be vegan again. Why am I doing it?
Quite simply, I believe it is wrong to kill and hurt animals.
That’s my reason.
They won’t understand, so I will be ready for it.
I’m ready to try again. I want to be vegan again. Accept I cannot call myself as such, because, I will not be strict when I am with my family. These occasions are infrequent where I eat with them, and when I do, they get I don’t eat meat and milk. However I cannot be the strict lane reading vegan with them. Our relationship has come too far to do that. Maybe one day they will understand, but they are not ready.
So, I am two days strong being vegan. I will be vegan when I have control and choice. When it comes to family, I will do my best.
Breakfast: chocolate chip bagel with PB