Recent Eats

I’ve had a lot of baking and food success lately, so indulge me (if you don’t follow my IG stories, I’m @gazzellie so LIGHT IT UP!)

Pancakes are still happening, but the other day I actually made them FROM SCRATCH! Truth be told, I usually use a box mix that I just add water to, then if I want to add anything, I add it afterwards adjusting the water levels (zucchini is wet y’all!)

I remember loving the blog Chocolate Covered Katie for some things. It’s hit-or-miss for me, but I got lucky this time. She has a banana pancake recipe perfect for one person. I decided to try it, and what do you know, it WORKED!

The topping is really simple, raspberries mushed and maple syrup mixed in. I’m fancy.

These pancakes were from a mix, but I added peanut butter powder to the batter. This actually worked as well! It added a subtle nutty quality and I might do it again. Adding some chocolate chips might be fun too next time. One thing I haven’t tried mixing in is protein powder. I have vanilla, cookies and cream and salted caramel flavors right now, and TBH I’m scared to commit to that. So probably wont for now.

I had great aspirations to make something cool this morning, but there was a man using the kitchen, so I settled for two bananas with peanut butter and raspberry chia seed jam/sauce. I didn’t hate it at all.

The other night (actually it was last week but whatever) I made Buffalo Chickpea Dip from my friend Britt’s Blog Leaves of Kale. She made this for a get together we had a few years ago at Tamerlaine Farm Sanctuary and I think I ate it all. I put it in my tacos, on this salad and dipped chips in it. MAJOR FAN GIVE HER SOME LOVE!

To end this photo dump, I was in heaven with this bowl. Curried kale salad is on the bottom, topped with Ithaca Hummus (lemon dill), Tofu Khan and RANCH CORN NUTS! It was great, I hope we get more of the kale salad at work soon because YUM.

Last night I made quinoa, so I’ll be eating that for the next few days. I also have tempeh marinating in a peanut sauce that just needs to be baked off. It’s looking like a few good meals are ahead of me.

I want a weekend damn it.

I’ve been thinking about quitting one of my jobs. I have three. And yes, two of them are very part time, but I can’t honestly remember the last time I had a weekend off.

Two full days. Of doing whatever I want.

Sure, when I went to Texas, that was a good few days off, but it’s different you know? Having an open two days in a town you’re familiar with, just doing whatever.

It sounds luxurious to only have two jobs. It sounds like a fantasy to not work everyday. How did this normal thing because so elusive to me?

Part of the problem is that I genuinely like my jobs. I could never dream of leaving CTB, it’s family. The gym is awesome because I know everyone, it’s not much work and I get a lot of benefits. Working for Agava is cool because I get to be artistic and also work remotely.

Each job fulfills some criteria so that I’m not bored.

I think I’m just burned out on work a bit. Mostly though, I want a fucking weekend. Or two days off where I don’t have to be somewhere at a certain time. Bingo. That’s it. For a few days I don’t want to be accountable.

Last weekend I was supposed to have a day off on Sunday, but I ended up going in to help out. It was ok and I’m not resentful, I got 10 hours of sleep that night so I was chipper. However I do think I need a day or two off here soon or I’ll really burn out.

The problem again, I love my job, I love my coworkers, I would do anything for them. Including come in on my days off.

The gym shift, from 9-12 on Saturday morning nags at me simply because I take at least one shift off a month for a race or run, it’s a bit annoying to work late Friday night and then run, and have to be somewhere the next morning. It also makes the day feel like a work day. So the rest of it I am getting groceries, or doing other productive things that seem not as fun.

I can’t really explain it. Maybe I’m being a baby.

If I do stop working at the gym, I plan to keep it secret for now. I don’t really want my boss at CTB to know (yet) that I have Saturday open. I love her, but I know I will get called in even more than I normally do. That would defeat the purpose of ending my gym shift.

I feel a bit more financially secure right now, after checking my bank account. Winning some money at Cayuga Trails helped, and I feel like I am in a good position to not work as much. When I win money at races, which I hardly ever do, that money goes to loans or gas for my car so I don’t feel guilty traveling or see family or friends (yes this weighs on my mind). I try not to spend recklessly. I cook now at home a lot more instead of buying food. I enjoy that almost as much as my breakfast sandwich on a biscuit 😉

What I need to do is talk to my boss at the gym. I’d still like to help them out if they need a sub (like I’m doing right now) or even stop in on Saturday evening when I have time to stock towels, clean up a bit and make sure things are ok. I just don’t want to work the 9-12 shift on Saturdays anymore.

I want a weekend damn it.