Chocolate oatmeal and NPR

I told myself last night that if I didn’t eat a chocolate bar before bed, because the caffeine keeps me awake, I could eat it for breakfast…so chocolate oatmeal was my jam today! The bananas at work were too green for me to eat, so I gotta give em a few days to ripen up.

I sent my mom a longish text message yesterday explaining a bit more about why I’ve decided to go vegan. She hasn’t responded so I might call her today, not to talk about that, but just to connect. She’ll enjoy that. I wish I could help her with her business more than I do, but I am a bit full right now. I also love my jobs here in Ithaca, and they pay me more than she can. I get it, she’s my mom and I don’t expect her to pay me very much if anything, but if I can make more money here and not have to drive in the snow-rain we have I’ll do that. It was even a trip to get the 2 miles up the hill to Agava yesterday.

I am blessed to work at CTB, which is right near where I park my van.

Last night was pretty slow at work, so we got some cleaning done. I also enjoy the time I have to talk with my coworkers. They are such funny people. I think customer service workers have two different personalities. When you take the time to talk to us, we can be the most fun and entertaining people you’ll meet. Ok, I’m usually like that, not gonna lie, I’m good at people skills. Some of my other coworkers who seem a bit more reserved, actually have a side of them that is really interesting and never fails to make me laugh.

My coworker and probably best work friend Josh and I use the last three hours of our night shift to narrate in an NPR style. We change our voices and discuss different customers or situations in downtown Ithaca that is quite hilarious, to us. I now listen to Fresh Air every morning at breakfast so I can get the voice right, and the show isn’t too bad either.

I have become the female runner who uses male shoes and socks. I love my Saucony KOA and the men’s width is perfect for me. My mom also got me men’s socks…which I don’t know how they are different from women’s, but I’m going for it.

Breakfast: oatmeal with chocolate and sunflower butter

Running: 45 minutes

Vegan bender, cavities and RACE PLAN!

Yesterday was the best. I think I went on a vegan bender…three vegan cafes in one day…slay me.

I started the beautiful day with a run in shorts, in February…hoping for some good weather next weekend as well. #thoughtsandprayers

I had some errands to do and to go to the dentist. For not going for six years, I had a couple cavities, so one was getting filled. Why he couldn’t do them all yesterday I will never know, so I get to get back on March 6th for the next one. It was kind of comical actually. My dentist is a nice guy, but also a to the point, no small talk man. So I’m in the chair, and he comes right in “Hello how are you?” Doesn’t wait for an answer, picks up a needle and proceeds to stick it in my mouth. I’m like “WHOA will this hurt?” He then goes “Oh no, small pinch.” Which then I’m like “Ok carry on.”

It was fine, but seriously my last dentist talked calmly and was like “You’ll feel a light pinch but it’ll be over soon…” almost like a yoga teacher. Whatever, I got through it and the numbness was almost completely gone by the time I met my coach for dinner at STRONG HEARTS!

But first of course, let me tell you about lunch because I went to BOTH vegan cafes in Ithaca. I got a maple sausage (yup, y’all heard that right) from Ten Forward, and took it with me to eat alongside my favorite Nuttin’ But Nuts bowl from Nikki Green. Both were delicious and perfect pregame for SHC later in the evening.

I went to GreenStar co-op to get more soy creamer. I realized that creamer is the only thing I’ve gotten for groceries in the past month. You know how I used to eat a big bowl of greens with dinner every night? Well, I still love broccoli, but I don’t really do that anymore. I have been eating soup or these weird rice cake chip things that were expired from work. #IDontThrowStuffAway

I also love this weird soy creamer, that kind of tastes grassy. It’s odd but it’s also the cheapest creamer there is. I got hooked on it at SHC and won’t go back. It’s better than Silk or Califa. I haven’t tried the Ripple brand yet, so the jury is out on that.

After my dentist appointment I went to the mall to get a second pair off Crocs for work. They are really comfortable but I have one pair that I used just to walk from my van to CTB to get dinner, but my sneakers started to hurt me feet…after all, they are supposed to be trail shoes…but they didn’t work for me.

Well, I didn’t get Crocs, but I did get a pair of Merril (sp?) clogs for work and two pairs of boots. One for winter next year (mine have no tread left) and for rain this spring. They also look nicer, which will be good for when I have to look nice for work at Agava or different showers, and occasions. I work sneakers to my cousin’s baby shower and my sister picked on me 🙂

I was really excited to get up to SHC to see my coach and EAT. I hadn’t been back since I moved, not purposely, but I just haven’t really had the need to get up to Syracuse. The food was just as good as I remembered and seeing my coach was the best! He is one of my best friends and also…RACE PLAN TIME!

We developed A, B, and C goals for the race and what to do if the shit hits the fan. He’s like “Let’s try not to have the shit hit the fan.” I feel really relaxed about the race and not nervous at the point. My fitness is built and the next week is about eating, getting squishy, keeping my legs turned over and having a good time at the race.

I got the Eggs Benetricked and he got the Tofurkey Club. Hollandaise sauce was still as good as I remember.

It was a great day!

Breakfast: Oatmeal with peanut butter, banana and an apple

Running: 61 minutes

Going back to Strong Hearts and my breakfast bin

Shorts and a tee this morning, I cannot hate on it. Now for light so I don’t need my headlamp! After yesterday’s much needed slog, my legs felt pretty recovered today. Still not at 100% but they will be soon. Taper is great.

Today I have the day off from CTB, and am meeting my coach for dinner at Strong Hearts! I am so excited! I have never really had a race strategy meeting, I mostly just do it, so this will be fun. Of course, I have a list of things to talk with him about that aren’t running, we are best friends after all 🙂

I went to Ten Forward Cafe twice last week. The first was when I had my aha moment and my first day recommitted as a vegan. I got the buffalo quesadilla that came with coleslaw. This is the best thing I’ve eaten in a while.

Then, on Monday, I was craving a scone (I’m back hard with those) and wanted to tell the owner Tammie that it was while sitting in her cafe that I recommitted. I always loved it when people told me they started thinking about the animals more or ate less meat because of me. She looked happy (albeit exhausted from pulling three double shifts. Maybe I should offer to help?)

Chocolate chip cherry scones oh my God. It was like a chordal cherry! I also love fun colored foods so…

He told me last night that he is being invited to speak at a Rochester Vegan meet-up about a documentary on vegan athletes. He is a pretty incredible runner, so I have no doubt he’ll nail it. He invited me to come watch, which I most definitely will do. The movie looks pretty great.

I slept so well last night. The temperature was perfect. I didn’t use my space heater and it was cool enough for blankets. I had a dream that the cops came a told me I couldn’t park my van where it was. That was frightening! I hope that never happens! I was able to eat dinner outside last night for a bit before it started to drizzle. I can’t wait for summer!

I saw this comic about almond butter a few days ago, and I couldn’t agree more 😛

I wanted to show my van kitchen. This is it. I have a bin of things to make oatmeal, then a plastic tub of Clifbars, Bad Ass Vegan cookies and a few miscellaneous fruit and nut bars. All my other food is from CTB or I treat myself to lunch on my days off. My breakfast bin contains quick cooking oats, maple syrup, cinnamon and a blend of chia/flax/wheat germ that I mixed together and add a quarter cup or so to my oatmeal. I then have two buckets, one of PB and one of sunflower butter on the floor (the 7lb ones I bought a month or two ago) which I put on top.

Breakfast: oatmeal with banana and peanut butter

Running: 70 minutes

Last long run, fully vegan

Yesterday I ran my last long run before my race in two weeks. It went well and I averaged a pace I would be happy to have at the race. Then almost immediately I went to work a very busy 8 hour shift. Don’t worry, I ate in between there. I didn’t sleep well and then had to open this morning. I’m a bit tired, but it’s only 2 in the afternoon now, so I might as well push through and sleep well tonight.

Tomorrow I have the day off. I have a dentist appointment, then I get dinner with my coach at Strong Hearts (yup, the one I worked at). I’m really excited!

I told both my sister and my parent’s that I intend to be vegan again. Of course there is hesitation, but it went better than I expected, so now I’m fully vegan when I’m with them or not. I couldn’t be more elated about my decision.

It was time. Vegan is the future and as my coach likes to say, he wants to be on the right side of history.

Breakfast: bagel with tofutti cream cheese and raspberry jalapeño jam

Running: Yesterday – 150 minutes, Today – 37 minutes

Doing my best, my vegan best

I was sitting at Waffle Frolic, about to eat my eggs Florentine waffle. I cut into the egg yolk, and I felt kind of sick. I started eating, and wondered what I was doing. My b12 levels are normal again. I still care for animals. Why am I eating this?

This was the culmination of what has been on my mind both during the day and in dreams at night. The pull, the remembrance, the feeling that I need to start doing the right thing.

What was stopping me? The ease. The convenience. How I didn’t have to think much. I never ate meat, but dairy is in everything. It’s so easy to just not care. Shrug my shoulders and say oh well, the universe is cyclical and I’m not killing anything directly.

My family does not accept it. My sister, who is my best friend, said she does not support me being vegan because it’s hard and a pain to spend time with me when they have to wonder what I can eat. I get it. When you don’t make the connection, which they don’t, they think humans are supposed to eat animals. That God put animals on earth for this purpose. I don’t believe that, but I cannot change their beliefs. They think I’m just being a difficult hippie. I also understand that I had a problem with food in high school. They thought that vegan was another one of those. They know I’m fine now, but still do not think highly of not eating certain foods for whatever reason.

Those are the obstacles that have been on my mind the past few weeks as I ponder trying to be vegan again. Why am I doing it?

Quite simply, I believe it is wrong to kill and hurt animals.

That’s my reason.

They won’t understand, so I will be ready for it.

I’m ready to try again. I want to be vegan again. Accept I cannot call myself as such, because, I will not be strict when I am with my family. These occasions are infrequent where I eat with them, and when I do, they get I don’t eat meat and milk. However I cannot be the strict lane reading vegan with them. Our relationship has come too far to do that. Maybe one day they will understand, but they are not ready.

So, I am two days strong being vegan. I will be vegan when I have control and choice. When it comes to family, I will do my best.

Breakfast: chocolate chip bagel with PB

Running: REST