In-Season Off Season

After tomorrow (or today’s) race depending on when this gets published, I have decided to take an off season.

My body is telling me it’s time. I could push it and train for something, but I am not emotionally invested enough in a race to do so.

Two halfs, an ultra and a very busy job has done me in for now. I woke up this morning feeling like I ran a marathon yesterday, and it was just my job and a light training day.

This is not right nor safe for a racing schedule, at least not for me.

I will take this off season to rest and heal my body both mentally and physically, use the results from Inside Tracker to help with nutrition and just, enjoy the warm weather in Syracuse.

Rest, heal and explore.

When I first moved to Ithaca, I was not racing, just building a consistent running base. I allowed myself to explore, go on runs where I didn’t know the distance or pace, get lost.

When I moved to Syracuse, I started a training plan where I ran on the treadmill because the winter was awful and I had no idea where I was. Syracuse is a city, Ithaca is a crunchy town. Difference.

I built up, got niggles. Training for Caumsett 50K interrupted and I didn’t do it.

I built back up. Raced the Syracuse half and Naked Prussian, got a niggle and training was interrupted again. I’ve been on and off since then nursing an Achilles niggle.

Work has gotten extremely busy, but insanely satisfying as well. I enjoy the environment, my coworkers are great and it’s what I want to be doing. However, my 8-9 hour workday is a training session in itself. I did not account for this in my weekly mileage or attempt to recover more from this. I simply expected my body to adapt.

Stress upon stress does not lead to adaption.

Rest leads to adaption.

So that’s where I’m at. I am healing my Achilles. Allowing my body and mind to relax. Getting to know my city so when I decide to train again, I will be more familiar.

I am deciding to be more focused on recovering from my daily job stress than attempting to crank out 90 mile weeks.

I am deciding to take the advice from Inside Tracker and apply it as best I can, but not obsessively. Honestly I don’t want to think about that too much, about nutrition for myself right now, so I’m giving them the reigns and I will follow the instructions.

I may not have run Boston or Lake Sonoma or anything like that, but my body has the fatigue of a fast marathon or ultra and it is telling me to relax and enjoy May in whatever way I choose.

See you out there…eventually 🙂

Why I’ve decided to work with Inside Tracker

There are things in life you can control and things you can’t. As a runner without the monetary access to state of the art facilities, coaches and chefs, it is important for me to optimize the opportunities I do have.

I know that one of the most important parts of training is diet and recovery. Diet in a sense that as an endurance athlete, I need to get in all the nutrients required for daily living…at a minimum. Let me explain this a bit. Rather than thinking about diet in terms of calories or macros, I think of it in nutrients. I must eat enough things and of diverse quality to get everything in. 100% of my daily recommendations for vitamins, iron, zinc, magnesium and the like.

Some days this bare minimum is 2,000 calories, some days it’s 5,000 calories, some days I get all the nutrients from 1,000 calories (when I’m eating nutrient dense, but calorically sparse foods like kale or spinach etc). However, just because I have all the nutrients in those calories does not mean I am done eating. Bare minimum means that I need to make sure I get in all the basic nutrients. The dessert I eat every night is the filler, the calories that make life fun, the emotional support I sometimes need and the calories that give me the energy to run everyday.

Basically what I am trying to say is it’s important to me to get in that base level of nutrients everyday.

In a long winded way, this brings me to Inside Tracker. I have wanted to get blood work done after my ultra season training simply because I knew I did damage, I just didn’t know how bad it was. Running 30+ miles is no joke to the body. Unfortunately, my insurance isn’t the greatest for this type of thing, so I decided to wait until I was done paying for school in July to get it done.

By chance, I was given the opportunity from Inside Tracker to get my blood taken and profiled for a bit less than my insurance. In addition to the niggles and slight injuries I’ve had this season and the fact that my emotions are all over the place, I was at a point where when they contacted me, I was very open.

I want to feel good again. All the time, not just here and there.

I am working on this psychologically, but I think that if Inside Tracker identifies a nutrient deficiency or something I can add to naturally feel better, I’m all for it.

Vegan. The elephant in this blog post.

I have made it no secret I think being vegan is an optimal way to live. I also admit that although I am a health coach, I do not know everything nor do I know what foods are perfect for my body. I know how I feel after eating certain things, but that’s about it. Using Inside Tracker will help me identify what foods will support me in both my vegan and athletic goals. I will take all their recommendations that follow an ethical vegan diet. I will stand by what I’ve always known to be true and that is I did not go vegan for health, I went vegan because I want to live my morals and ethics concerning non-violence, compassion and love toward all beings.

Today, as of writing this, I’ve had my blood draw and await the results.

Look for part 2 in the coming weeks.

Being Honest and Realistic

There are a few things I want to squawk about today and they all sort of revolve around being realistic or being honest.

The first is in regard to “reintroducing dairy” or any other animal product back into their diet.

[vegan milkshake from SHC]

Let’s get real because here is what I see and I wish people would be honest. Dairy is delicious. I remember how I was addicted to it and although I don’t really remember exactly how eating it tastes, I imagine it’s the same as sugar. Science says that is the case and people are addicted to dairy. It’s hard to break addictions. I get it. What I would appreciate is more honesty when people break their morals and veganism and reintroduce dairy for “health reasons”.


Just be honest. Dairy tastes good and you would rather eat it than find vegan alternatives. That’s your thing. Sure, I could lay some hate right now, but that’s just not my jam. If you want to eat dairy, you do you, just be honest as to why you’re doing it. People would rather eat a 300 calorie pint of Halo Top or arctic Zero rather than a 1000 calorie pint of So Delicious vegan ice cream. Just be honest.

It’s also easier. Yesterday I was driving home through really remote farm lands and there wasn’t really anything to eat. I was getting famished actually and pulled over at an ice cream shop (because why have a grocery store when you can have an ice cream shop right?) I was thinking about how if I was a new vegan and in this state, I would probably break my veganism and just get a cone. It’s easier. Life will go on. However, I’m not at that point anymore. The place had fries so I got those. Sure, it would have been easier and the vegan god would have forgiven me, but I can’t do it anymore.

[and why would I want to?]

In the spirit of earth day and knowing how terrible eating animal products is for your health, the planet and for the animals, I just want people to be honest about why they are eating that stuff. It’s not for your health. It’s because it’s easy and it tastes good. Be honest, be real.

The second is getting real about how moving has affected me and my training and how I plan to proceed.

It’s been a winter and early spring where I’ve been busy learning my new job. I’m not training optimally and oddly now, I’m at peace with it. There will be more time for running, more time for races and that’s exciting. Right now my focus is to enjoy running everyday. Not overdoing it or following a training plan. Just me and running, that’s still the goal.

So I’m not running as much, but it’s all good.

I’m happy. It’s spring.
Happy Earth Day!


If I’ve learned anything about myself as I get older is that I am very impulsive. I do things sometimes with little thought and let the chips fall where they lie.

For example, I got my nose pierced randomly on a day when I had an extra hour of time and wanted to visit I the local tattoo/piercing/coffee place.

I make plans with short notice and actually prefer that.

I sign up for random races of varying distances just because they sound fun or I’m restless.

Last week, I was feeling emotionally vulnerable and angry. Angry at myself for falling into belief with the idea that I could manage all things. Angry that I was vulnerable. Angry that I wanted normal things in a normal life. Angry that I allowed myself to feel like I deserved some sort of kinship.

So, I wrote an impulsive blog post.

Granted, I still do find value in relationships, but I was silly in putting faith in them, or faith in finding them. I left myself open to getting burned or feeling lonely and ignored.

I was angry I let myself do that. I am very self reliant and when I want to depend on someone else or find some other sort of meaning, I usually fail.

That’s just my life and that’s just me. I love my friendships, but I will never be the person who depends on others. I have cultivated much self love because I do not expect others to love me.

That’s just me.

I’ve accepted it. I was angry, but I’m not anymore. I don’t like being mad at anything for longer than a couple days, so I’m on the upswing. Back to trusting myself, loving myself and living how I want.

Onward and upward.